KNOWING NOT grieving remembers a thousand savage and lonely streets。 They run from that night when he lay and heard the fnal footfall and then the fnal door（they did not even turn the light out）and then lay quietly， on his back， with open eyes while above the suspended globe burned with aching and unwavering glare as though in the house where all the people had died。He did not know how long he lay there。
He was not thinking at all， not sufering。Perhaps he was conscious of somewhere within him the two severed wireends of volition and sentience lying， not touching now， waiting to touch， to knit anew so that he could move。
While they fnished their preparations to depart they stepped now and then across him， like people about to vacate a house forever will across some object which they intend to leave。
Here Bobbie here kid here's your comb you forgot it here's Romeo's chicken feed too Jesus he must have tapped the Sunday school till on the way out its Bobbie's now didn't you see him give it to her didn’t you see old bighearted that’s right pick it up kid you can keep it as an installment or a souvenir or something what don’t she want it well say that’s too bad now that’s tough but we can’t leave it lay here on the foor it’ll rot a hole in the foor it’s already helped to rot one hole pretty big for its size pretty big for any size hey Bobbie hey kid sure I’ll just keep it for Bobbie like hell you will well I mean I’ll keep half of it for Bobbie leave it there you bastards what do you want with it it belongs to him well for sweet Jesus what does he want with it he doesn’t use money he doesn’t need it ask Bobbie if he needs money they give it to him that the rest of us have topay for it leave it there I said like hell this ain't mine to leave it's Bobbie's it ain't yours neither unless sweet Jesus you're going to tell me he owes you jack too that he has been f—ing you too behind my back on credit I said leave it go chase yourself it ain’t but fve or six bucks apiece Then the blonde woman stood above him and stooping， he watching quietly， she lifted her skirt and took from the top of her stocking a fat folded sheaf of banknotes and removed one and stopped and thrust it into the fob pocket of his trousers。
Then she was gone。get on get out of here you ain’t ready yet yourself you got to put that kimono in and close your bag and powder your face again bring my bag and hat in here go on now and you take Bobbie and them other bags and get in the car and wait for me and Max you think I’m going to leave either one of you here alone to steal that one of of him too go on now get out of hereThen they were gone：the fnal feet， the fnal door。 Then he heard the car drown the noise of the insects， riding above， sinking to the level， sinking below the level so that he heard only the insects。He lay there beneath the light。He could not move yet， as he could look without actually seeing， hear without actually knowing；the two wireends not yet knit as he lay peacefully， licking his lips now and then as a child does。
Then the wireends knit and made connection。 He did not know the exact instant， save that suddenly he was aware of his ringing head， and he sat up slowly， discovering himself again， getting to his feet。He was dizzy；the room went round him， slowly and smoothly as thinking， so that thinking said， Not yet。but he still felt no pain， not even when， propped before the bureau， he examined in the glass his swollen and bloody face and touched his face。“Sweet Jesus，”he said。“They sure beat me up。”He was not thinking yet；it had not yet risen that far， I reckon I better get out of here。I reckon I better get out of here He went toward the door， his hands out before him like a blind man or a sleepwalker。He was in the hall without having remembered passing through the door， and he found himself in another bedroom while he still hoped perhaps not believed that he was moving toward the front door。
It was small too。Yet it still seemed to be flled with the presence of the blonde woman， its very cramped harsh walls bulged outward with that militant and diamondsurfaced respectability。On the bare bureau sat a pint bottle almost full of whiskey。He drank it，slowly， not feeling the fire at all， holding himself upright by holding to the bureau。 The whiskey went down his throat cold as molasses， without taste。He set the empty bottle down and leaned on the bureau， his head lowered， not thinking， waiting perhaps without knowing it， perhaps not even waiting。Then the whiskey began to burn in him and he began to shake his head slowly from side to side， while thinking became one with the slow， hot coiling and recoiling of his entrails：“I got to get out of here。”He reentered the hall。Now it was his head that was clear and his body that would not behave。He had to coax it along the hall， sliding it along one wall toward the front， thinking，“Come on， now；pull yourself together。I got to get out。”Thinking If I can just get it outside， into the air， the cool air， the cool dark He watched his hands fumbling at the door， trying to help them， to coax and control them。“Anyway， they didn't lock it on me，”he thought。“sweet Jesus， I could not have got out until morning then。
It never would have opened a window and climbed through it。”He opened the door at last and passed out and closed the door behind him， arguing again with his body which did not want to bother to close the door， having to be forced to close it upon the empty house where the two lights burned with their dead and unwavering glare， not knowing that the house was empty and not caring， not caring anymore for silence and desolation than they had cared for the cheap and brutal nights of stale oftused glasses and stale oftused beds。His body was acquiescing better， becoming docile。He stepped from the dark porch， into the moonlight， and with his bloody head and his empty stomach hot， savage， and courageous with whiskey， he entered the street which was to run for ffteen years。
The whiskey died away in time and was renewed and died again， but the street ran on。 From that night the thousand streets ran as one street， with imperceptible corners and changes of scene， broken by intervals of begged and stolen rides， on trains and trucks， and on country wagons with he at twenty and twenty-fve and thirty sitting on the seat with his still， hard face and the clothes（even when soiled and worn）of a city man and the driver of the wagon not knowing who or what the passenger was and not daring to ask。The street ran into Oklahoma and Missouri and as far south as Mexico and then back north to Chicago and detroit andthen back south again and at last to Mississippi。 It was ffteen years long：it ran between the savage and spurious board fronts of oil towns where， his inevitable serge clothing and light shoes black with bottomless mud， he ate crude food from tin dishes that cost him ten and fifteen dollars a meal and paid for them with a roll of banknotes the size of a bullfrog and stained too with the rich mud that seemed as bottomless as the gold which it excreted。
It ran through yellow wheat fields waving beneath the fierce yellow days of labor and hard sleep in haystacks beneath the cold mad moon of september， and the brittle stars：he was in turn laborer， miner， prospector， gambling tout；he enlisted in the army， served four months and deserted and was never caught。And always， sooner or later， the street ran through cities， through an identical and wellnigh interchangeable section of cities without remembered names， where beneath the dark and equivocal and symbolical archways of midnight he bedded with the women and paid them when he had the money， and when he did not have it he bedded anyway and then told them that he was a negro。For a while it worked；that was while he was still in the south。It was quite simple， quite easy。Usually all he risked was a cursing from the woman and the matron of the house， though now and then he was beaten unconscious by other patrons， to waken later in the street or in the jail。
That was while he was still in the（comparatively speaking）south。 because one night it did not work。He rose from the bed and told the woman that he was a negro。“You are？”she said。“I thought maybe you were just another wop or something。”She looked at him， without particular interest；then she evidently saw something in his face：she said，“What about it？You look all right。You ought to seen the shine I turned out just before your turn came。”She was looking at him。She was quite still now。“Say， what do you think this dump is， anyhow？The Ritz hotel？”Then she quit talking。she was watching his face and she began to move backward slowly before him， staring at him， her face draining， her mouth open to scream。Then she did scream。It took two policemen to subdue him。At frst they thought that the woman was dead。
He was sick after that。 He did not know until then that there were white women who would take a man with a black skin。He stayed sick fortwo years。 sometimes he would remember how he had once tricked or teased white men into calling him a negro in order to fght them， to beat them or be beaten；now he fought the negro who called him white。He was in the north now， in Chicago and then detroit。He lived with negroes， shunning white people。He ate with them， slept with them， belligerent， unpredictable， uncommunicative。He now lived as man and wife with a woman who resembled an ebony carving。At night he would lie in bed beside her， sleepless， beginning to breathe deep and hard。He would do it deliberately， feeling， even watching， his white chest arch deeper and deeper within his ribcage， trying to breathe into himself the dark odor， the dark and inscrutable thinking and being of negroes， with each suspiration trying to expel from himself the white blood and the white thinking and being。And all the while his nostrils at the odor which he was trying to make his own would whiten and tauten， his whole being writhe and strain with physical outrage and spiritual denial。
He thought that it was loneliness which he was trying to escape and not himself。 but the street ran on：catlike， one place was the same as another to him。but in none of them could he be quiet。but the street ran on in its moods and phases， always empty：he might have seen himself as in numberless avatars， in silence， doomed with motion， driven by the courage of fagged and spurred despair；by the despair of courage whose opportunities had to be flagged and spurred。He was thirty-three years old。
One afternoon the street had become a Mississippi country road。 He had been put of a southbound freight train near a small town。He did not know the name of the town；he didn't care what word it used for name。He didn't even see it， anyway。He skirted it， following the woods， and came to the road and looked in both directions。It was not a gravelled road， though it looked to be fairly well used。He saw several negro cabins scattered here and there along it；then he saw， about a half mile away， a larger house。It was a big house set in a grove of trees；obviously a place of some pretensions at one time。but now the trees needed pruning and the house had not been painted in years。but he could tell that it was inhabited， and he had not eaten in twenty-four hours。“That one mightdo，”he thought。
but he did not approach it at once， though the afternoon was drawing on。 Instead he turned his back upon it and went on in the other direction， in his soiled white shirt and worn serge trousers and his cracked， dusty， townshaped shoes， his cloth cap set at an arrogant angle above a three-day's stubble。Yet even then he did not look like a tramp；at least apparently not to the negro boy whom he met presently coming up the road and swinging a tin bucket。He stopped the boy。“Who lives in the big house back there？”he said。
“That where Miz Burden stay at。”“Mr。 and Mrs。Burden？”
“No， sir。 Ain't no Mr。Burden。Ain't nobody live there but her。”“Oh。An old woman， I guess。”
“No， sir。 Miz Burden ain't old。Ain't young neither。”
“And she lives there by herself。 Don't she get scared？”
“Who going to harm her， right here at town？Colored folks around here looks after her。”
“Colored folks look after her？”
At once it was as if the boy had closed a door between himself and the man who questioned him。“I reckon ain't nobody round here going to do her no harm。 She ain't harmed nobody。”
“I guess not，”Christmas said。“How far is it to the next town over this way？”
“Bout thirty miles， they say。 You ain't fxing to walk it， is you？”
“No，”Christmas said。 He turned then， going on。The boy looked after him。Then he too turned， walking again， the tin bucket swinging against his faded flank。A few steps later he looked back。The man who had questioned him was walking on， steadily though not fast。The boy went on again， in his faded， patched， scant overalls。He was barefoot。Presently he began to shufe， still moving forward， the red dust rising about his lean， chocolatecolored shanks and the frayed legs of the too short overalls；he began to chant， tuneless， rhythmic， musical， though on a single note：
Say don't didn't。
Didn't don't who。
Want dat yaller gal's Pudden don't hide。
Lying in a tangle of shrubbery a hundred yards from the house， Christmas heard a far clock strike nine and then ten。 before him the house bulked square and huge from its mass of trees。There was a light in one window upstairs。The shades were not drawn and he could see that the light was a kerosene lamp， and now and then he saw through the window the shadow of a moving person cross the further wall。but he never saw the person at all。After a while the light went out。
The house was now dark；he quit watching it then。 He lay in the copse， on his belly on the dark earth。In the copse the darkness was impenetrable；through his shirt and trousers it felt a little chill， close， faintly dank， as if the sun never reached the atmosphere which the copse held。He could feel the neversunned earth strike， slow and receptive， against him through his clothes：groin， hip， belly， breast， forearms。His arms were crossed， his forehead rested upon them， in his nostrils the damp rich odor of the dark and fecund earth。
He did not look once again toward the dark house。 He lay perfectly still in the copse for more than an hour before he rose up and emerged。He did not creep。There was nothing skulking nor even especially careful about his approach to the house。He simply went quietly as if that were his natural manner of moving and passed around the now dimensionless bulk of the house， toward the rear， where the kitchen would be。He made no more noise than a cat as he paused and stood for a while beneath the window where the light had shown。In the grass about his feet the crickets， which had ceased as he moved， keeping a little island of silence about him like thin yellow shadow of their small voices， began again， ceasing again when he moved with that tiny and alert suddenness。From the rear of the house a single storey wing projected。“That will be the kitchen，”he thought。“Yes。That will be it。”He walked without sound， moving in his tiny island of abruptly ceased insects。He could discern a door in the kitchen wall。He would have found it unlocked if he had tried it。but he did not。He passed it and paused beneath a window。before hetried it he remembered that he had seen no screen in the lighted window upstairs。
The window was even open， propped open with a stick。“What do you think about that，”he thought。 He stood beside the window， his hands on the sill， breathing quietly， not listening， not hurrying， as if there were no need for haste anywhere under the sun。“Well。Well。Well。What do you know about that。Well。Well。Well。”Then he climbed into the window；he seemed to fow into the dark kitchen：a shadow returning without a sound and without locomotion to the allmother of obscurity and darkness。Perhaps he thought of that other window which he had used to use and of the rope upon which he had had to rely；perhaps not。
Very likely not， no more than a cat would recall another window；like the cat， he also seemed to see in the darkness as he moved as unerringly toward the food which he wanted as if he knew where it would be；that， or were being manipulated by an agent which did know。 He ate something from an invisible dish， with invisible fingers：invisible food。He did not care what it would be。He did not know that he had even wondered or tasted until his jaw stopped suddenly in midchewing and thinking fled for twenty-five years back down the street， past all the imperceptible corners of bitter defeats and more bitter victories， and five miles even beyond a corner where he used to wait in the terrible early time of love， for someone whose name he had forgot；five miles even beyond that it went I'll know it in a minute。I have eaten it before， somewhere。In a minute I will memory clicking knowing I see I see I more than see hear I hear I see my head bent I hear the monotonous dogmatic voice which I believe will never cease going on and on forever and peeping I see the indomitable bullet head the clean blunt beard they too bent and I thinking。How can he be so nothungry and I smelling my mouth and tongue weeping the hot salt of waiting my eyes tasting the hot steam from the dish“It's peas，”he said， aloud。“For sweet Jesus。Field peas cooked with molasses。”
More of him than thinking may have been absent；he should have heard the sound before he did， since whoever was creating it was trying no more for silence and caution than he had。 Perhaps he did hear it。but he did not move at all as the soft sound of slippered feet approached thekitchen from the house side of it， and when he did at last turn suddenly， his eyes glowing suddenly， he saw already beneath the door which entered the house itself， the faint approaching light。 The open window was at his hand：he could have been through it in a single step almost。but he did not move。He didn't even set down the dish。He did not even cease to chew。Thus he was standing in the center of the room， holding the dish and chewing， when the door opened and the woman entered。she wore a faded dressing gown and she carried a candle， holding it high， so that its light fell upon her face：a face quiet， grave， utterly unalarmed。In the soft light of the candle she looked to be not much past thirty。she stood in the door。They looked at one another for more than a minute， almost in the same attitude：he with the dish， she with the candle。He had stopped chewing now。
“If it is just food you want， you will fnd that，”she said in a voice calm， a little deep， quite cold。
