And we then began to talk.I asked him if he often patronised the bark-heap,he seemed so very much at home there.
"So I am,"he answered,smiling;"it is my castle--my house.""And not unpleasant to live at,either."
"Except when it rains.Does it always rain at Norton Bury?""For shame,John!"and I pointed to the bluest of autumn skies,though in the distance an afternoon mist was slowly creeping on.
"All very fine now,but there's a fog coming over Severn;and it is sure to rain at nightfall.I shall not get my nice little bit of October evening.""You must spend it within doors then."John shook his head."You ought;it must be dreadfully cold on this bark-heap after sunset.""Rather,sometimes.Are you cold now?Shall I fetch--but I haven't anything fit to wrap you in,except this rug."He muffled it closer round me;infinitely light and tender was his rough-looking boy's hand.
"I never saw anybody so thin as you;thinner much since I saw you.
Have you been very,very ill,Phineas?What ailed you?"His anxiety was so earnest,that I explained to him what I may as well explain here,and dismiss,once for all;the useless topic,that from my birth I had been puny and diseased;that my life had been a succession of sicknesses,and that I could hope for little else until the end.
"But don't think I mind it;John;"for I was grieved to see his shocked and troubled look."I am very content;I have a quiet home,a good father,and now I think and believe I have found the one thing I wanted--a good friend."He smiled,but only because I did.I saw he did not understand me.
In him,as in most strong and self-contained temperaments,was a certain slowness to receive impressions,which,however,being once received,are indelible.Though I,being in so many things his opposite,had none of this peculiarity,but felt at once quickly and keenly,yet I rather liked the contrary in him,as I think we almost always do like in another those peculiarities which are most different from our own.Therefore I was neither vexed nor hurt because the lad was slow to perceive all that he had so soon become,and all that I meant him to become,to me.I knew from every tone of his voice,every chance expression of his honest eyes,that he was one of those characters in which we may be sure that for each feeling they express lies a countless wealth of the same,unexpressed,below;a character the keystone of which was that whereon is built all liking and all love--DEPENDABLENESS.He was one whom you may be long in knowing,but whom the more you know the more you trust;and once trusting,you trust for ever.
Perhaps I may be supposed imaginative,or,at least,premature in discovering all these characteristics in a boy of fourteen;and possibly in thus writing of him I may unwittingly be drawing a little from after-experience;however,being the truth,let it stand.
"Come,"said I,changing the conversation,"we have had enough of me;how goes the world with you?Have you taken kindly to the tan-yard?
Answer frankly."
He looked at me hard,put both his hands in his pockets,and began to whistle a tune.
"Don't shirk the question,please,John.I want to know the real truth.""Well,then,I hate the tan-yard."
Having relieved his mind by this ebullition,and by kicking a small heap of tan right down into the river,he became composed.
"But,Phineas,don't imagine I intend to hate it always;I intend to get used to it,as many a better fellow than I has got used to many a worse thing.It's wicked to hate what wins one's bread,and is the only thing one is likely to get on in the world with,merely because it's disagreeable.""You are a wise lad of your age,John."
"Now don't you be laughing at me."(But I was not,I was in solemn earnest)."And don't think I'm worse than I am;and especially that I'm not thankful to your good father for giving me a lift in the world--the first I ever really had.If I get one foot on the ladder,perhaps I may climb.""I should rather believe so,"answered I,very confidently."But you seem to have thought a good deal about these sort of things.""Oh,yes!I have plenty of time for thinking,and one's thoughts travel fast enough lying on this bark-heap--faster than indoors.Ioften wish I could read--that is,read easily.As it is,I have nothing to do but to think,and nothing to think of but myself,and what I should like to be.""Suppose,after **** Whittington's fashion,you succeeded to your master's business,should you like to be a tanner?"He paused--his truthful face betraying him.Then he said,resolutely,"I would like to be anything that was honest and honourable.It's a notion of mine,that whatever a man may be,his trade does not make him--he makes his trade.That is--but I know Ican't put the subject clear,for I have not got it clear in my own head yet--I'm only a lad.However,it all comes to this--that whether I like it or not,I'll stick to the tanning as long as Ican."
"That's right;I'm so glad.Nevertheless"--and I watched him as he stood,his foot planted firmly,no easy feat on the shifting bark-heap,his head erect,and his mouth close,but smiling--"Nevertheless,John,it's my opinion that you might be anything you liked."He laughed."Questionable that--at least at present.Whatever I may be,I am just now the lad that drives your father's cart,and works in your father's tan-yard--John Halifax,and very much at your service,Mr.Phineas Fletcher."Half in fun,half in earnest,he uncovered his fair locks,with a bow so contradictory to the rest of his appearance,that I involuntarily recalled the Greek Testament and "Guy Halifax,Gentleman."However,that could be no matter to me,or to him either,now.The lad,like many another,owed nothing to his father but his mere existence--Heaven knows whether that gift is oftenest a curse or a boon.
The afternoon had waned during our talk;but I was very loth to part with my friend.Suddenly,I thought of asking where his home was.
"How do you mean?"
